Dance with the angels today Dad!

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Dear Dad,
Happy Father’s Day to you! I really can’t believe it’s been 5 of them now with out you to celebrate with. How can that be?

In the morning sunshine I still feel your presence and the comfort of your hugs. Some days it’s both painful and peaceful when I do too and all in the same breath.

I miss you so.

This week I wondered something I have never thought of before. The sunshine, my wise self and tears confirmed this to be true too. Since both Jill and my birthdays are in June those years we each were born you thought of us as your very special Father’s Day gift!

That thought has really warmed my heart.

I have a special memory of you that comes to me often when I am making myself a sandwich for my late night at work suppers. Not too many years back I watched you fix yourself a sandwich to take to work. I was seated at the dining room table and you were in the kitchen at your house. You were putting all the fixings on it including lettuce. As you piled on the lettuce and put the top piece of bread on it you “smushed” the lettuce down to make it all fit. I can still hear the crunch.

There was something very special in this everyday simple act that struck me and lingers as a moment to remember about you. I’m not exactly sure what it is that imprinted that moment in my memory other than it was a caring about yourself act to make a sandwich complete with lettuce on it and it warmed my heart to see you do that for yourself.

Funny how remember certain events and not others. Of all the millions of moments in my life that included you in them that one sticks out so keenly! And on Tuesdays and every other Thursday mornings when I make up my sandwich to take to work you come to mind and I smile inside and of course some days get teary eyed too.

So here’s to you this Father’s Day with special memories to warmly remember and fill my heart!

I do hope you have a special day and with Dunkin, Filmore and Sidney dance away with the angels today!

I love you Dad-
Jude