Forget-Me-Not…

I need a clone. Actually about 4 of me would be wonderful…one to stay home and enjoy my world here with husband, cats, friends, garden, knitting, reading; one to go to work as I do enjoy my work; one to stay with my mom as it pains me greatly to see and know she is all alone; and one to live with my sister who it feels like ‘I am home’ when I am around her.

My sister has been with my mom this week and is leaving today. It saddens me to know mom will be alone once again. I grieve not only for my dad but for her being all alone in that house filled with all of his memories. It is where she is close to him and that is a good yet a painful reality for her. Life is full of those on one hand and yet on the other just the opposite occurs all in the same breath kinds of realities.

The sun is up and the birds are singing, the air is sweet smelling and I can feel it warming up around me as I sit on my deck and process the last several weeks. It has been a rather full few weeks. All good stuff but busier than I have been in a long time. There was a time in my life when I didn’t feel my life was full enough of people, things to do and usefulness. That is not now.

And, in all my frenzy of activity I have rather sort of forgotten to leave enough time for me just to sit and be still. That time is finally now. I’ve had to dampen my urge to have coffee with a friend or two in need, go to one more store, and find one more meal to fix so I can savor time with myself, husband and cats. I realize I’ve missed us all terribly.

What do you or can you do so as not to forget-me-not?