It’s only been SIX months?!

Grieving is physically and emotionally exhausting work

Six months ago my dad was recovering from his surgery and I was there with my mom watching over them both hopeful and relieved he had made it through so well because I had that notion something bad was going to happen. My heart is aching today and has been for several days now. Everything feels heavy too physically and emotionally. Grief has a way of grabbing hold of us all over our bodies. It certainly has with mine this week and especially today as I have time to sit and reflect and allow my feelings to surface.

I can’t believe it has been six months too on one hand. And, the other it feels like a life time has passed and six months seems way too short for all that has happened since he died. Strange to experience such different senses all in the same breath.

I realized too just a bit ago that I really don’t want for him to be gone. I don’t think I’ve experienced that notion so vividly before this day. I mean I really don’t want this to be real. Part of me is numb to that reality yet and I know that very reality is sinking in deeper into my awareness this morning. Allowing the’ I don’t want this’ is all a part of coming more fully to accept. Those muscles of mine ache at the prospect—especially my heart.

So I sit and take a deep breath and remember that meditation…everything is as it should be…and of course I cry.

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