McAllister, my little helper

I have a cat helper today. McAllister is sitting here with me, rubbing her chin on the screen in want of attention or food or both. And of course as cats do, she won’t cooperate easily to let me take a cute picture of her.

It is a lovely cool fall like day. We went to the Farmers Market this morning and found some local fruit and veggies as well as a rainbow in the sky. I haven’t seen one of those in awhile.

The sun this time of year is bright here in a different way then during the summer. I am sure it has to do with the angle we are at and distance from the sun itself. I want to learn more some day.

I have a list in my head of all those things I hope to learn more about when retirement finds me. I can’t imagine what that is like to have time to do as my heart desires in any given day at the pace I want to do it at too. Right now that seems so very far from the pace life seems to flow.

I know my current pace is impacted by some body parts that get sore and tired and don’t exactly work in the same way they once did. Things seem to take me longer to do. I don’t have the same amount of energy I once did either.

Unfortunately, I haven’t grasped on to that reality in my expectations of me on many days. I want to do more than I have the time and energy to do and then I get cranky and tired and it shows mostly to my husband. He has saintly patience with me. I am grateful. I am regretful too. It would be best if I could practice the art of pacing myself in line with reality more often.

In my head I am still in my 20’s in many ways. My body says differently. My experience in life says so too. I really wouldn’t like to be back in my 20’s again. I’ve learned so much since then. It is not easy to be a young adult starting out. It wasn’t when I was there back in the 70’s and 80’s. I know it is even more challenging getting started these days than it was for me. The world has changed so.

So the world and I aren’t the same. We never are the same, time and life itself changes us each and every day. This is the way of life itself.

And McAllister has moved on to find a lap for a little nap. Ah, I could learn so much more from her too!

What limits does your body have that you need to accept and accommodate into your daily life?