My get up and go, got up and went away!

Yes, my mind tells me it wants to be active doing things as I usually do and my body isn’t cooperating and keeps saying no way…I wish they would get it together!

I had a bout with the Norovirus a couple weeks ago and missed a whole week of work…that was not fun and, you do not EVER want to get that. I’m just sayin’!

And then, last Sunday spots developed on my belly and shingles were confirmed on Monday and I’ve been home ever since mostly on the couch exhausted yet wanting to get up and go and I can’t. These two conditions are related. I would not likely have gotten the shingles if I had not had the Norovirus. Lucky me!

I had shingles 20 years ago that was diagnosed quickly and like now I got on meds right away and they didn’t get bad; except for how shingles plays out on inside me that is. They are not painful and only mildly itchy—I recall itching terribly with chicken pox as a kid fortunately that has not been the case since then. But, for me the shingles wipe me out physically and emotionally. I only wish I could remember how long it took me to get over these symptoms the last time. But then I am 20 years older too….

I’ve learned a lot since getting the Norovirus about a great many different things. And once again know way deep down that everything is, as it should be too!

I would not have gained the awareness’s I now have without having gone though all that I have been experiencing. Interestingly, I am very very grateful for this too!

I really needed to learn the stuff that I’ve been learning! Since I am pig headed and stubborn at times, I do tend in my life, to have learned the hard way about many things too!

There is a meditation practice call “willing hands”. What you do is simply turn your palms upward…just try it and see what happens. If you are like me you will notice a shift in your thinking that happens. It is a very helpful tool when trying to open yourself up to just about anything.

I was supposed to attend a conference in the Chicago area this coming Monday and Tuesday that I soooooo badly wanted to attend to learn from the trainers and be spoiled in the luxury of the hotel I planned to stay in too. I picked out some wonderful workshop sessions and was very enthused with the programs and speakers.

While my mind so very much wants to go my dear body has other plans. I knew Friday morning when I woke up that I really was not up to the drive at all. So, I looked on the Amtrack website and found a train that left out of Kalamazoo mid afternoon today and booked the very last seat. I could drive to Kalamazoo much easier than negotiate through all the traffic in my emotional and physical state I thought. Getting the very last seat seemed like that was meant to be too!

My dear mom was trying to talk some sense in me for a couple of days about not going but my stubborn teenager mind wouldn’t hear of it at all. I was right back where I was in my mind as a teen too thinking I knew more that she did. Go away I don’t want to hear it. If I was a teen of today’s generation I would have rolled my eyes I am sure!

This is amusing because more recently she and I have had some role reversals and I’ve felt like the mom telling her things like to put her hat and gloves on this winter when visiting her and taking her out shopping! She refused the gloves I might add and later wished she had taken them after all too! We laughed about that. See mom if you’d only listened to me…

I told mom on Friday that I would not go if I was not up to it, yet she worried and pressed me and I held firm. My husband let me know he was worried about me and the trip too that afternoon. And I reassured him I would not make it if not up to it even on the train.

Friday after napping before dinner on the couch and I fell asleep right after dinner on the couch and then got into bed before 9. And, my body started to ache. I have involuntary body jerking movements as one of my symptoms that got worse that evening as well.

At 11:30 pm my dear cat Gurney woke me up. She had a hairball I later learned and after vomiting up her food had a hungry tummy. I glanced at the clock and asked her to leave me alone and became aware of just how horrible I was feeling physically and well, my mind finally got in sync with my body and told me I was not even up to a train ride to Chicago let alone a two day conference far away from my couch and bed. I recall turning my palms upward willingly accepting this reality and fell rather quickly back to sleep.

I thank you Gurney for enduring that hair ball and waking me up. I might not have come to that realization without your help! And to my husband for cleaning it all up…it was a rather nasty episode too.

On Saturday as soon as I woke up, I canceled the hotel and train ride thankfully getting refunds on those and tried to reach the conference people via phone to leave a message but could not leave one. So, I emailed the person who registers people for the conference canceling and asked her to please give my space to someone who really wanted to go that was not able to do so. She wrote back and told me she has someone in mind and wished me well.

I think this person whom ever it is, is the one meant to attend those workshops and not me. I really do.

It amazes me just exactly how things not only happen for a reason but happen exactly just as they are meant to be!

Not only have I been learning what I needed to learn throughout all this but someone who really needs to hear and experience that conference and those sessions I picked out is getting to do just that. And all is well and soon I will be too if I let myself rest up some more!

What has been happening in your life recently just as it should be?