Releasing Grief

Feeling connections and releasing grief

I sat warmly inside and watched the sun peek out between the trees this morning as it made its way upward from the horizon.

The morning sunrise connects me with my dad. I feel close to him when I look into the sun’s rays. It is as though for a brief time he is here with me in spirit, and I miss him. I feel the sharpness of my loss alongside the warmth of knowing he is here with me too. It is a strange mix of emotion both comforting and painful all in the same moment. I know I’m releasing grief with each breath I take.

Releasing grief is hard emotional work.

I am grateful for the sun’s reminder of my dad. When I take the opportunity to reflect on him and feel my painful loss it is a time of healing.

I have to give myself the opportunity to release my grief too.

Sometimes I just don’t have the energy or time or it’s not the right place to allow my grief to come forward and I touch it ever so briefly and push it back inside.

Sixteen months since his death it still seems surreal at times that my dad is gone. I wonder just how this person who’s been there my whole life can simply no longer be. My mind fills with memories. I want so badly to go back in time. My heart is heavy. I feel the intense rawness of my emotions. Tears come forward to help me release my grief and move to accept, yet once again, this unavoidable and painfully real part of life itself.

Today the sunshine reminds me that my dad is still a part of my life.

I don’t always get to see the sun but it is still there up beyond the clouds on dreary days. I can’t see my dad but he is still here for me in my memory and in my heart.

Today I could feel his spirit’s presence in the warmth of that sunshine streaming in through my window and my heavy heart can rest a little lighter having touched upon and released a bit more of my grief.

What helps you move through your grief and remain connect to those you’ve lost?

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